I Am a Motherless Daughter







May 10, 2015

Today is Sunday and it's mothers day. I woke up and put on Men In Black 2 on Netflix. Any who, I love mother's day and all celebrations, but especially a day for moms. Everyday is mom's day. In our hustle in bustle world we forget about spending time with family, more specially our mothers; the ones that helped bring us into this world. I would like to dedicate todays blog about my own mother-- that is not with us anymore. I really do miss her and that is why I live in this moment, because right now I get to celebrate her spirit again. I used to get her all the cliché mother's day gifts (cards,flowers & treats) and it reminds me of walking through the stores and seeing all the “happy mother's day balloons.” It's really very painful actually, but the pain of just remembering her brings me joy. I was thinking of visiting my aunt in Burbank, Ca today because she was close to my mom.

My mom and I were close too, she was my friend too. The fact that I cannot talk to her about the crazy things that are happening to me in my 20's. How uncertain my life is and all I have is the present moment, but my mom is in my past. I am searching my thoughts for memories of her and nothing is coming up, sometimes I forget her voice. It's so painful to think about never seeing her again in physical reality. That is why I turned to the moment, the moment saves my life, time and time again, I'm so grateful for now. My love for my mother never dies in this moment, I still love you mom. And happy mother's day to all you moms, you matter so much.

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